Please have an idea about what I’m going to write by first reading this entry.
Yes, it was last year’s stand. I need to change. I shouldn’t be led by immature emotional. This one year has taught me a lot that I should not be too much dependant on people. I need to be free and loose.
This year I am going to be a 23-year guy (read: guy), which means I should not be the same like a 22-year-old-Zaki like is used to be last year. I need to change. Life is a journey with so many changes involved all the way towards a goal.
If I can change physically, why shouldn’t I change emotionally?
Those things still happen, but now I don’t really mind anymore. Let them be their way and I hope they’d see it from me.
Those things used to hurt me, but not now anymore. Let them be.
Those things used to affect a whole of my day, but not anymore. Whatever I hear, I see and I feel just takes not more than few minutes before I come to a controlled state.
Yes, I need to have a control over myself. Being emotional is like being a girl, man! One day I’ll be leading a lovely loved woman with me and I should not be emotional in order to do that, because women in their nature set by the Great Creator are with that attitude. Rationality plays major role in men’s decision making, and I am learning to develop that in me.
Allahumma la tuzigh qulubana ba’da iz hadaitana wahablana min ladunka rahmah, innaka antal wahhab..