Catatan Bergambar Hari Raya Pertama

*usah dikata aku indecisive, kerana tidak pernah kubilang bila sebenarnya aku mula berhibernasi :)


Memasang pelita di hari mulia. Tapi kalau amik gambar malam, kompem tak nampak, maka ambil gambar siang sahaja. Batangnya ada di situ, dibuat daripada dahan kelapa sawit muda.


Suasana yang biasa pada setiap kali selepas sembahyang Raya di Kanchong Darat. Sesak!


Juadah di pagi raya. Arakian mak dan abah sangatlah muak dengan nasi impit dan ketupat setelah dua minggu lebih awal sudah dijamu dengan makanan yang sama, jadi mak menyediakan laksa (yang sedap sudah tentu!) sebagai juadah istimewa. Ketupat yang ada tu pun lebih-lebih semalam, elok lagi...


Selepas sembahyang raya, menziarahi kubur arwah nenek dan atuk di Kanchong Tengah. (Note: Ada dua buah kampung bernama Kanchong yang duduk sebelah menyebelah)


Baju itulah yang dimaksudkan "baju hijau striking". Sepanjang hari ini, tak kurang 10 orang berkata tentang baju aku secara terus dengan aku. Tak kurang juga ada yang bertanya "bila nak kawen?!" kerana selayaknya baju sebegini dipakai semasa nikah. Er... baju itu nampak besar! Adakah aku makin susut? Mungkin juge...


Bila dah duduk semeja dengan saudara-mara macam ni, macam-macam topik menjadi bualan.


Air minuman berkarbonat buatan tempatan - Glokal. Sokonglah barangan buatan Malaysia!


Suasana biasa setiap kali hari raya pertama, rumah ku sesak dengan kenderaan.


Juga suasana biasa jika tetamu terpaksa duduk di atas lantai lambang tak cukup seat! Ada 2 set kerusi sofa dan 1 set meja makan, semua penuh!


Tetamu yang tidak diundang menyapa rumahku pagi tadi. Mujur sahaja tiada sesiapa yang cedera.

Hari Raya & Hibernation

First of all, I wanna wish everybody who visits this blog Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin...

And this is an announcement: This blog will be hibernating until November 15, 2006. I got exams to do. Wish me all the best ye? Dean's list! Here I go!!!!

EXAMEGALOMANIA

ETHICS & FIQH FOR EVERYDAY LIFE

Friday Nov 3 2006, 9:00 AM

SYSTEMIC ANATOMY

Saturday Nov 4 2006, 9:00 AM

PHYSIOLOGY II

Wednesday Nov 8 2006, 9:00 AM

HUMAN GENETICS

Thursday Nov 9 2006, 9:00 AM

PRINCIPLES OF MICROBIOLOGY

Wednesday Nov 15 2006, 2:30 PM

LEADERSHIP AND MANAGEMENT

Done

Final Presentation

A so-called exam, one already done yesterday, but cannot say much on that as long as i haven't got the picture from someone. BTW, three days more before we stop lecture for 12 days and continue with exam. Argh!

Frustration

Frustration – a word that I mentioned in last entry as asam garam in life. Today (Thursday) it came again, hurting my feeling.

“Kenapa nama ko takde, Zaki?” asked Safwan on our way back to college.

“Entah, mana la aku tahu. Dah undi tak cukup. Mungkin bukan nasib aku untuk dicalonkan.”

“Ye la... ko kan nak sangat jadi...”

“Memang! Aku tak nafikan aku memang nak jadi SCIENCESS (Science Students Society) Exco, tapi hari ni dah terbukti nama aku takde. Nak buat macam mane? To be frank bila aku tak nampak nama aku dalam list tadi, terus rasa kecewa. Sentap! Pasal tu la aku senyap je tadi lepas pengumuman tu.”

“Owh...”

“TAPI lepas tu aku fikir balik apa yang ko sendiri pernah kata kat aku – jangan mengharap jawatan, nanti akan membebankan. Kalau ko nak tahu, aku pegang nasihat ko tu, aku tanam dalam hati sampai sekarang. Lepas beberapa minit aku fikir-fikir, I’m cool! Sebab ni bukanlah kali pertama aku tak dapat apa yang aku harapkan, so I live with it la... Mesti ada hikmah di sebaliknya.”

“Hm... bagus la...”

Thanks Safwan for motivating me long ago and miraculously it stays tough in my mind. We talked about this when we odah-ed about myself during studying at SAMBEST where I didn’t get (not even nominated) the prefect post. Lastly, the hikmah (I think la) was shown when the SPM result revealed. 10 A’s! Who knows if I destined to be prefect, I won’t get such a good result because of being too busy with non-academic works?

It’s not because I’m gipang (gila pangkat), but it’s because I think that I’m ready to hold such post based on my experience and skills that I have. But now I have reset the mind set – not necessarily people think the way we do. Maybe we think that we are eligible, but to other people, maybe they don’t think so and that explains why they don’t vote for me. Plus, Islam does not encourage the followers to love post or appointment and that’s the one I should put faith in.

Ok, THAT’S IT. I didn’t get any post in SCIENCESS Exco. No more question. TITIK. To those who have been selected, congratulations, especially to Lutfi who has been selected to be the new President of SCIENCESS. Clap clap clap... Cayalah bro! Now let’s bring SCIENCESS to the betterment. Takkan selamanya nak terperuk buat program peringkat kulliyyah je?

SCIENCESS's logo.

Being 21

It’s another day of my life where the sun of 11th October shines from the east. It’s my 21st birthday!

I’m very thankful to God for giving me opportunity to live another day on His earth with full of al-rizq and barakah that even my words of praise towards Him will never enough compared to what He has granted.

To me, reaching 21 years old is something to ponder. There were many things happened all these while; happiness, sadness, shocked, desperation, anger, frustration, satisfaction, pleasure, fight, hatred, winning, losing, all!

Yet I’m still here, trying to live my life to the fullest. Struggling to make everybody happy about me, seeking satisfaction for everybody around me, and striving to let things happen the best they can. But I’m just human. I can only do things up to my best, but not necessarily the results will be one too.

Thanks to all who wish me for this anniversary; in the blog, via the SMS and verbally. Syukran kabeeran katheeran! *setelah ditegur oleh baez. TQ!

Wish list:

1. I want to be more mature like a 21-year-old guy in the way I act, the way I bring myself and the way I think, and I hope that this behavior of mine which sometimes turns childish and immature will gradually fade away.
2. Regarding my academic stuffs, I pray that this semester I will come out with better result, I mean dean’s list CGPA – 3.5 or above. Caiyok!
3. I hope that my ‘baby’ will get OK soon as it was sent to Dr. Mobile Clinic in KLCC to repair the damage. If it’s destined not to live anymore, I’ll consider to get a new one; Nokia N-series! Hehe... Another one: Better computer. This one I’m using sometimes put my anger to the maximum point. Argh!
4. Talking about clinic, I’m still hazy on why I cannot make it – reduce my weight! Argh! I wish the ninety-plus-kilo weight will little by little decrease. Amen...
5. I pray for the move to Kuantan to bring more good than bad to me, to my family, to my friends, to my classmates, to my kulliyyah, and to all.
6. Nak jumpe Mawi! Bapak laa... minat sikit punye mendalam, tapi haram jadah sekali pun tak pernah jumpa mamat ni! Anyone can arrange? Kalau boleh nak nyanyi sama-sama dengan dia, boleh?
7. Lastly, I want to be better man!

MUHAMMAD ZAKI BIN RAMLI
October 11, 2006
8.52 am

Lagu Raya and Birthday Celebration

It’s my routine to listen to the radio while doing my jobs, assignments, reports, even when I’m sleeping. But there’s something different tonight whilst I’m drawing histological pictures for Anatomy report. I’m listening to Lagu Raya!

I whispered to myself, “owh... lagu raya dah keluar kat radio”. Then I looked at the radio, five past 12 already, which means it’s already 15th day of the Ramadhan.

I can’t stand when the lyrics said “Hamba musafir di Aidilfitri... Oh Tuhan yang Maha Kaya, hamba menangis di pagi raya” and this quickly brings me to think about my fellow friends who are in the oversea, completing their studies. I don’t know how it feels when I don’t celebrate Hari Raya with family because so far I am never apart from them during first day of the beautiful day. Oit Malaysian students in the oversea, how you feel uh?

Apart from that, it’s another year to celebrate my birthday in Ramadhan. Last year was a boring one where I just belanja few of my friends burgers and drinks after terawih, they said thank you and wished me happy birthday, ate the foods and that’s it. Nothing really special about last year’s birthday anniversary which i think i supposed to be one because it's for 20th of my life!

Yet, I still don’t know what to do to make this year’s 11th of October a special and memorable one. And still until now I never had a super-duper-bombastic-fantastic-romantic birthday celebration like what I used to watch in the TV. Do I have to get till 50, only then some closed people around me will make it, like what my father had last August? (tapi tak bagitahu terang-terang nak buat celebration besar-besaran. Sudahnya aku tak balik untuk sambut sama-sama padahal ramai saudara-mara datang. Sentap tak?) Owh... why must I confess this here?

Maybe next year will be a special one, where the 11th of October falls on Syawal month. But I don’t have Hijr calendar to check this. Hm~ Ok la... Stop dreaming! Baca buku lagi baik... Final exams are just around the corner, and yet still few assignments and chapters to go through.

At least this picture proved me Abah and Mak pernah buat birthday celebration for me although Nenek is the only guest of Honor. Hoho... Bersyukurlah dengan apa yang ada. (^_^)

New Layout and Mercun

I'm thinking of changing the layout of this blog, and installing song player as like what i used to do not long ago. Another thing is the banners linking to all my fellow bloggers, I'll make it in GIF format which i think look cuter... Samples:

...and of course I have to update the list. But don't worry... This won't affect my study because i'll do it gradually and everything will be done completely when I've finished the exam.

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Last but not least: JANGAN MAIN MERCUN!!! Ni yang aku nak mengomel ni...

Baru puasa tak sampai dua minggu dah ade kes cedera pasal main mercun dan meriam buluh. Yang bongok sangat tu, kenapa masih nak main mende jadah ni walaupun dah tahu bahaya? Ke memang tak tahu bahaya? Bapak bongok tahap dewa! Mak bapak tak hajar ke? Geram betul aku ngan budak-budak yang tak reti bahasa ni la! "Bongok" kira mencarut ke? Habis puasa~

Tambah geram, semalam aku dapat mesej daripada orang aku tak kenal (maybe pasal aku dah hilang semua contact) mempromosikan penjualan mercun. Terus aku balas: "Owh aku adalah anti mercun. Mercun bukanlah ajaran Islam, malahan suatu bentuk pembaziran jua. Sekian tazkirah utk hari ni. Selamat berpuasa & raya dgn selamat".

TITIK.

Nak beraya kat hospital? Main la mercun... sila sila...

Kun Fayakun...

Reading Kak Ila’s and Kak Syifa’s blog recently brought me to think about one thing: things happen.

Like in Kak Ila’s blog which stories on her lost of two of her family members, and Syifa who allegedly about to involve in an accident. Fortunately, those are destined bad things that affect indirectly on them. Not like me, argh!

To story goes like this; It’s a normal routine to go for laundry every week but that day, it was not like one because I went home after a month apart from my beloved family. The intention was to spend the first day of Ramadhan with them, because after that I planned not to go home until the end of the barakah month.

Back to the laundry; it’s a normal behavior of mine to put all things out from the pockets before throwing the clothes into the washing machine. Wallet, coins, etc...

After that, I went for a short break, watching the television and suddenly...

“Zaki!!! Zaki!!!” my mom shouted. Aik mak? Takkan malam puasa pertama dah marah-marah? Zaki baru balik ni mak! My heart whispered.

I ran to her and then I saw my phone in her hand. ?????? Aku lupa nak keluarkan henpon aku dari poket!!! Argh!!!

Then I grabbed the phone, shook it until uncountable drops of water got out of it. Then I felt the phone turned warm. Battery! Keluarkan battery!!!

Thing already happened. I don’t have to tell how frustrated and disappointed I was that time for my own mistake. Moral of the story: No matter how careful you are, when He destines you for something, it will be. Kun fayakun... I put full faith in His words.

Now, the phone is still in ICU. The doctor tell me it’s hard to cure it as it is new brand phone and it’s hard to find spare organs to replace the damaged ones. Takpe doctor, buatlah apa yang patut asalkan anak saya pulih sepenuhnya. O_o

Poor me... Those who have my number, please send me a sms. I’ve lost all contacts. My number +60123106189. Miscall tak main aa... Tau la caller rigntone aku suara Mawi... O_o

I'm now using this previous phone of mine - Nokia N-gage. But it's infected by CommWarrior and I don't know how to remove it. The symptom of the virus, it send MMS unwillingly. Fortunately, i don't activate the GPRS, or else my credit will be reduced out of my control.

I miss you, my baby...